I'm sick of being fat. I was becoming less fat but then I started Seroquel and stopped becoming less fat and became quite possibly more fat. I say quite possibly because you couldn't pay me to step on a scale right now. I know I'm fat. I can see myself in the storefront windows as I walk by I'm not blind.
I hate it. I feel ugly and unhealthy.
No matter how futile though I'm still working on it.
I have an allergist appointment on the 30th. I'm kind of excited. For one I'll finally find out what all I'm allergic to. For two (lol I know so grammatically incorrect.) it's a 4 to 5 hour appointment with NO KIDS. Lot's of testing and waiting for results so I'm thinking I can bring a book and relax lol.
The children and I went to the Oregon Coast to visit the parental units. It was alright. They're both so tense over estate stuff that I kind of regretted going. My mom had a talk with me about "going forward" with the girls and having a schedule and a routine...um HELLO!!!! Schedules and routines go out the damn window when on vacation. Why do you think they're being such maniacs. God I have a schedule and a routine. It's not rigid but things get done in a certain order and at just about the same time every day. If someone is sick the routine gets screwed with a bit. I was kind of offended because I remember my childhood. We didn't have anything resembling normalcy till I was about ooooh 8 or 9. My dad was drunk and or high most of the time when I was younger. My mom was high sometimes. I had two younger siblings 3 and 4 years after I was born. My mom admittedly didn't want kids. So she didn't have much fun with us. So she can bite me for that.
Girl number two is having fun potty training finally. I'm doing the padded underwear and plastic pants thing with her. Pull ups are too comfortable.
Uhhhhh yeah I'm sure there is more but it'll give me a reason to write tomorrow.
1 comment:
You may find that when you get your allergies under control, you'll have an easier time losing weight. Allergies cause problems with sleep and there is a direct correlation between sleep issues & allergies and being overweight. I know you're on meds that contribute to weight gain, but by eliminating one of the contributing factors, maybe things will get easier :-)
BTW...I lost 85 lbs over an 8 month period. basically, I cut out ALL soda (I only drank water and coffee lol) and cut waaayyyyy down on white rice, potatoes and bread. Once you start lose a little bit of weight, you get more motivated to make more changes.
Good luck! You CAN do it!!
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